When I’m two thirds of the way through a long Wednesday,
feeling myself go crazy but with no time for a nap, I often give myself just
one minute. I close my eyes, and for one perfect minute I am lying on my back
in Forest Park, looking up at the cracked fragments of sky through the huge,
protective canopy of Douglas Fir trees. Of course after those 60 seconds, I
have to come back to this realm of existence, but that quick taste of nature is
enough to keep me going. It’s nothing like the real thing, but it gets me
through the week.
I have never been able to fully subscribe to any ideas of
religion. Sure, I appreciate the teachings and lessons, but I have never been
able to relate to ancient stories of prophets or gotten any sort of relief from
spending time in churches.
I don’t know what it means to be religious, but I have been
able to experience the profound, overwhelming, all-encompassing feeling of
belonging I imagine spirituality provides. It happens away from other people,
in my own place of worship, my own church.
Maybe I’m like an animal in a cage who just needs to touch
solid ground once in a while. Or maybe my lungs need a chance to breathe crisp,
clean air. Perhaps I just need to have all my senses stimulated to full
capacity to feel alive. Whatever the reason may be, being outside, feeling
fully connected to this Earth I live on, is my own personal enlightenment.
I believe in making the time to experience this crazy
wonderful place we get the honor of living in. While bee stings and thorn
scratches can be deterring, I assure you that pain is only temporary. All
wounds in time will heal. The complete, fulfilling, incredible feeling of
belonging to more than just a body, being tied down to nothing but the very
Earth I am made of, however, will never fade.
As someone who also enjoys that giddy feeling of energy and freedom that only a hike can bring, I love this post. It's wonderful that you have a taste for the outdoors because I feel like in our tech-y day and age, fewer and fewer people do. I also really enjoyed how you likened it to religion, it was an interesting way to look at nature. Thanks!
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